First Post (2024): The Brutally Honest Truth

Salam Family,

Pray you all are having a wonderful Shabbat! I have always wanted to share my experience with transparency on this platform so as to not give off the misconceived impression that I am better than anyone else walking in this journey called life.

Having always called this a ministry, there are heavy thoughts that have been weighing on my heart that need to be shared before I can rightfully move forward with this channel as well as my continual journey of healing. I do not want to share any advice hypocritically, and truthfully, I have struggled with whether or not I should simply shut this all down so as to save face and allow the Most High to rebuild me privately...

Because of a recent transgression, that led to even greater mistakes, I did not believe that I was at a place where I can speak on the topics that are constantly on my heart the most—family, godly womanhood, the scriptures, and life’s purpose. Having failed in listening to His Holy Spirit when sin came knocking on my door, I completely fell flat on my face.

During my time with the Creator this past year and a half, however, I have come to realize and remember that as His word says, when we fall we rise up again (Prov. 24:16). Moreover, having a beautiful baby boy now, in all of this, there is so much at stake, as his little ears and eyes are picking up on everything.

I am humbly sharing this with you now no longer carrying the load of guilt, shame, and disappointment, that seldomly still tries to weigh me down. I strongly believe that I owe this little to you because of the very topics I specifically have spoken about in the past,and in due season, in the near future.

There are several other women (and men) who are in my shoes, who cannot wrap their minds around how they found themselves having gotten into sticky situations. The first step is simply to own it without minimize your actions, nor blaming any other party regardless of how closely connected they are to the situation. Thereafter, commune with the Father and give it to Him. Also, while carefully avoiding those who may want to constantly remind you of your defeats, you have to get out of your own head, as we often are our own greatest discourager.  Deliverance and the process of change is constant. Leave your yesterday behind you even if others will not.   

The Most High does not will everything, but He does allows us to have our own way even if our stubbornness/weak-mindedness will lead to our temporary downfall. There are wonderful things to be derived in every object lesson we find ourselves in. I am learning so much about myself and going through A LOT of pruning and fine-tuning.

I pray this message finds you healthy and hopeful.

Take courage.

Your Sister in the Way, 

Atim